Pushing through the Doldrums
I really do need something to be motivated about . . . but so far I have not found it. Reading, playing puzzles, working in the garden, cooking, and watching TV. Good stuff but just not exciting enough to lift me into a happy state of mind.
Part of this state of mind is that every thing I think of possibly doing I negate it by thinking how long it will take to get any good at it. Why, I have to be good at something in order to be happy to be doing something I don’t know. Probably need rewiring on that score.
It used to be it didn’t matter how complicated something was I would just jump in and start doing it and see what developed. Now I seem to have bought into the “getting old,” syndrome and I disregard every new thought as “just one more thing I will start and not finish.”
And the big factor is I do not want to read a book, or watch a video or hear about how I should change my life to be better. I am very tired of other people saying they have the answers to making life wonderful because I have come to the point in my life – finally – where I think very few people actually have answers that fit me. What works for them may be super wonderful but it does not mean it is the answer for me.
Though on a lighter note I am seriously thinking of taking up rock painting as some point for fun. For now I am playing around with drawing simple figures. Today I am drawing little houses from a pin I found on Pinterest. The artist is Alexia Claire
Who I am, where I am and how I am is not something I no longer give up my responsibility for. So I hope this is not depressing to read – because it’s not hopeless – and my mood often changes with the weather, food I ate and how much sleep I got and in many cases what I am reading or watching on TV.
In the end of this life what will I look back upon and say this is what really mattered? And I think mostly just being a nice person is way more important than accomplishing super wonderful things. At least those are the people I most remember in my life.
Books I’m Reading
Good Habits Bad Habits by Wendy Wood. I had checked this out before but only got through a couple of chapters before I quit. Then I decided a few days ago it might help me with moving forward on something (of which I do not know yet know). At any rate I am enjoying it the second time – a bit of a struggle to stay committed to it – but I think if I do it will help. Perhaps, just perhaps it will help me to start working on a book again.
All the detective books by J. A. Jance that take place in Seattle. These are her Beaumont series. I’ve read a number of them but decided I would start from the beginning and work my way through them all. I can’t say it will change the course of world events but I’m enjoying them.
Terribly, terribly missing our almost weekly trips to the library. Digital books are okay but I do like print the best.
Buddy still wants to get out desperately! This is going on the third week I think and he has not given up hope. And the nicer the weather gets the more unhappy he is going to be. The question is how long do I hold out? Hmmm?
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- New garden gloves!
- Found the yummiest oven fried potato recipe. I have tried lots of different recipes but love the spices with this one.
- Drinking a Coffee Chai and writing here. Delish!
On Jigsaw Planet I found a board collection of Puzzles by Polish Artists. I love em! Here are three to see if you like them too. You may want to change the puzzle piece count if the pieces are too small on your viewing device.150Sylwia Gromacka _ Magic Town144Colorful town by Anna Wach150Colorful houses by Paulina Lebida