A meditative journey
Closing doors and opening the mind
A few weeks ago I let my business license go and yesterday I canceled my business account at my bank. Both things I needed to do as they were no longer good for me but still there was a feeling of failure involved with closing a venture down and putting an “Out of Business” sign on the window, even if that window was merely a mental picture in my head.
Afterwards I felt elements of sadness, disappointment, anger at self, resentment, etc. etc. which of course are all perfectly natural. I decided to spend some healing time to listen to a 20 minute meditation that Cathy sent me a link via email a few days ago. The meditation is called RAIN by Tara Brach.
RAIN stands for these four thoughts to explore.
Truthfully I was not in the mood the first time I tried this meditation. I was feeling like I HAD to do things, move forward, get something done to make the day feel worthwhile but since Cathy had been kind enough to send me this I figured she could probably sense that I needed it and I should do it.
Others see what we are too involved to see with clearness and this was truly the case with this meditation gift. I tried a couple of times to settle down and listen to the recording but two or three minutes in and I threw in the towel. Twenty minutes seemed like a very, long, long time to just meditate. Maybe there was or is some resentment lingering from the years of monastic scheduled periods to pray, meditate and be “still” for hours of the day coloring my thought processes.
At any rate I wanted to give the meditation concept a chance and on my third attempt which was yesterday I managed to get through the whole twenty minutes. It was not bad and I felt a tiny bit of calm peeking through like light rays under a heavy leafed tree. It was enough of a glimpse that the meditation could be helpful that I tried it again later in the day.
The second time I knew more what to expect and my resistance was lower so that it became even more helpful. When I was at Guest House prior to leaving the monastery there were a few times that we were given some meditation exercises and those I found very helpful so I did have some positive vibes as well that this might be good for me.
I can’t say that I am a convert to guided meditations at this point (though actually praying the rosary is about as guided a meditation as there is!) but I am going to continue for awhile and see how it goes.
It’s such a process for me to relearn slowing down and letting go.
Inspirational Story of the day
Shrine of Safe Return – a story from 101 Inspirational Stories of the Power of the Rosary – an amazing story of God speaking to a priest in the confessional.
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- Closed my business account at the bank so one less worry taken care of.
- A simple green salad made with our own lettuce and tomato last night was yummy!
- Saw Mr. Big Bunny on our walk.
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